Loneliness

Invisible

I know you know what it's like to feel hurt,

And you probably know how it is to feel broken.

And I'm sure you know what it's like to feel 

Sad and angry and lost and insecure, 

To feel like you have been ripped open.

But do you know what it's like to feel invisible?

To go through all that pain and have no one notice a thing?

No, you don't know what it's like to feel invisible.

To have so much to say but no one's listening.

And I could disappear at any moment,

And nobody here would even notice.

Now I'm just a ghost of who I used to be,

And I'm so alone, the pain's my only company.

I'm falling to pieces but no one can see.

Because I'm invisible.

And I know you know what it's like to feel lonely,

And I know you know that it doesn't fell good.

But do you know what it's like to feel that

Nobody is there for you at all,

To feel outcast, misunderstood?

and do you know what it's like to feel invisible?

To feel like you don't matter at all?

No, you don't know what it's like to feel invisible,

Or how they can make you feel so small.

And I could disappear at any moment,

And nobody here would even notice.

Now I'm just a ghost of who I used to be,

And I'm so alone, the pain's my only company.

I'm falling to pieces but no one can see.

Because I'm invisible.

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Loneliness

I like to think that everyone has their own little world to carry on their shoulders just like Atlas carried the world on his in Greek Mythology. When we are fist born, in most cases, our worlds do not rest on our own shoulders but on our parents' or guardians'. We are unable to fend for ourselves so each little part of our world: our health, our hygiene, our happiness, our warmth, our shelter and just about everything else is being carried by those who care for us. As we get older we start becoming more responsible and so we are handed some of these little pieces of our worlds to look after.

The more distanced from people you are and the less people you have in your life, the more of your world you have to carry. You have less people to help you with the burden that is your life and so the burden just gets heavier and heavier. When you are responsible for so much of your world (Or in the cases of those completely alone, all of your world), it's hard to take could care of it. You have to be your own parent, your own family, your own friend and do all of the jobs that those people do. You have to support your self, cheer yourself up when you're down, give your self a pat on the back when you deserve it and try and teach yourself how to learn from your mistakes. That is what it is to be alone.

It's hard to be alone because not only do you have to carry the burden of your whole world, all of your secrets and worries and thoughts and feelings, but you have to keep up with everyone else while doing so. You have to keep up with those who have friends that help carry the burden of their happiness or family that help carry the burden of their safety, whereas those who are alone have to get by just the same but with all these extra burdens to carry. 

When you need help, you have to help yourself. When you need more time, there is no one to stall for you. When you miss something, there is no one to fill you in. And even when something great happens, when you get that good grade or that fancy promotion, you have no one to toast to your victory with, no one to tell or how great or are or how they're proud of you.That is what it's like to be lonely.

 So in conclusion, avoid being alone at all costs, if at all possible and if you can't or you are already all on your own, then I'm sorry. I hope you find someone to help you carry your world and I hope the same for myself.

- T.L.Wizards